She first appeared when I needed to cut
some Toxic People out
my life-
I cut them lose and I felt a little guilty but a lot lighter.
I called on her again when
I had some Toxic Relatives to cut lose- not a problem- once you start thinking of your life as something worth protecting you’d be surprised how easy it is to do that.
She was pleased.
I did it all so I could get my life back on track
Now I’m the uncaring, unfeeling, driven mean woman that’s on everybody’s ‘ you know what list’.
I know because they told me so.
They tell me every chance they get.
In the old days I’d have been hurt.
But I’m passed that.
I thought.
Today was bad and I thought if anything
sets me back
today will
Then I thought
To Hell with that.
To Hell I say.
So I started to write
And with each word I put down I
felt
stronger.
The Toxic Avenger Strikes Again.
Hurray!
Irregular Bones 
How do you call on her?
I think I could use a visit…
I look in the mirror and say,
” Let’s Do It.”
amm
nothing like a good detox i say!
samm
Oh Touché Samm
And thanks for stopping by.
amm
It is hard sometimes to not need the people you can see throgh the mean. But you have to know the mean is part of them, the biggest part, that you have sectioned off in your mind to allow them to be something else. Something better. Something and someone you can need and care about. That is a kindness you have to save for other people though. People who do not hurt you on purpose. And for you. You deserve the kindness.
That’s good advice Max, and I’m going to remember it.
Thank You,
anita marie
I think that is what is the hardest- to see the people and accept every part of them. I find that I can handle the attentions of some people (family in particular) when it is in low doses… otherwise they become a poison. The surprising thing is when I actually see myself turning against me, too!!
Am I just sounding really out there os do you know what I mean?
Hi Nanu
I know exactly what you mean, accepting those parts of the people you know who are trying to hurt you is contrary to self-preservation, so I think that’s where that anger comes from that you’re feeling.
So what you’re saying makes sense to me.
anita marie