I Guess It Was A Secret

When I was about eight my family moved out of Seattle- they took me away from Greenlake, my friends Bonnie and Laurie who belived that when we grew  up we would   fight monsters, become Captains of our own spaceships  and if we were lucky move to Transylvania and get little castles with cypts in our basements next door to each other.

I was not happy about this great big idea that was being forced on me by my parents.

So, just before we left Seattle for the wilds of Mountlake Terrace my Grandma’s sister told me a story about the place I was moving to. I guess she told it to me because she believed it would cheer me and a give me something to look forward to.

I wasn’t like other kids, as you may have guessed, so you couldn’t cheer me up the way you would cheer well, a normal kid up.

 My Grandmother’s family learned this little factoid about me started shortly after we had just moved from Hawaii. One day they took me  the zoo and we would saw these wild rabbits running around and I said out the blue – ” I’ll bet they catch those and feed them to the tigers .”

” A few years ago a plane crashed in Mountlake Terrace.”

I stopped hoping that Zombies would eat  the entire population of Terrace and thus save me from this awful fate long enough to say ” Really.”

” It was awful.”

I was all ears.

” There was a fire and…”

And this is where I sort of got some points wrong.

When my Granmother’s sister told me that a plane had crashed, just blocks away from my new house and that people had been ‘ lost’ I assumed it meant

” How come they never found it?”

” What?”

” The burning plane, how come they never found it?”

” What?”

” Are they all blind up there, couldn’t they see where it crashed?”

My Grandpa was helping to take boxes out to the moving truck and he told my Grandmother’s sister as he walked by “That girl’s brain is like a meat grinder. Anything you put into it is going to get turned into mush at the other end.”

I stopped and pictured it and found I really liked  the idea of having a meat grinder inside of my skull. When I was done turning that nifty picture around my head I was going to ask some more questions about the plane- but my Grandmother’s sister was gone- in fact she never had much to say to me after that day.

A week or two after moving to Terrace I hadn’t made many friends, my teacher welcomed me to my second grade class by coming up behind me when I was at my desk talking to the boy next to me by grabbing me by the hair on the back of my head and shaking it from side to side before banging it down onto my desk while saying red-faced,  ‘ Didn’t you hear me tell you to shut your mouth Miss Godfrey!”

So pretty much friendless and with all of that free time on my hands I decided to go and look for the crashed plane that had been ‘ lost’.

I had this bag of snacks, a little notebook and a camera and every Saturday morning I started to go through the ‘woods’ that used to be around here looking for plane wreckage.

On one of my trips some of the neighbor kids  asked me where I was going and I told them. After that it became something we did in our spare time. I won’t fool you, I wasn’t fond of my new ‘friends’ who didn’t know about Space Ships or Monsters or grave robbing. But it was something fun to do in the days before Malls and Computer Games.

It was on one of our last trips mostly because  I had this great idea involving a Pirate Ship / Fort  and the search for the ” Burning Plane ” was drawing to a close that this guy who lived on the next block over asked what we were doing and I told him.

” Well. That’s about the most idiotic thing I’ve ever heard no planes have ever crashed around here. Ever. Let alone a burning plane.”

In fact, that wasn’t the only time I had heard that.

Every time  I told anyone what I was doing on Saturday Mornings a lot of older people seemed to go out of their way to tell an eight year old to grow up and quit looking for things that weren’t there.

No planes had ever, ever crashed in Terrace or anywhere near it I was told over and over again. I thought that the people who kept on insisting on that point were full of baloney and  in time I moved on to other ‘great ideas.’

But they must have worn me down because just about a month ago my husband asked me if I had seen the newspaper story about oh yes, a plane that crashed right here in Mountlake Terrace. Two people were killed ( lost ) on the ground and indeed a fire was involved.

I was stunned, ” You mean that was a true story?”

Here’s an interesting quote made 48 years later in from a story that the MLT News ran back in April

I never really heard anything about the crash anymore and so many people have moved or passed on and it was getting harder to verify the crash. Sometimes I would wonder if I really had witnessed the crash or was it a dream. I can still see it happen in my mind.

( MLT NEWS )

The thing of it is, less than 10 years after the crash when I turned up in Terrace- the burning plane was not only all but forgotten some people were insisting that the story was just that.

But let me tell you, if this kid who went hunting for Vampires and Zombies and burning planes was still around- she’d be all over this little story like ants crawling all over somebody buried up to their necks in sand and covered with honey.

Indeed she would be.

 

Yes. Its True.

When I was a little kid my Mom was fond of ” Spaghetti Westerns ” and I used to watch them with her mostly because when they were on TV on Sundays and nothing much else was going on.

Unlike my Dad she didn’t make popcorn when she watched her shows.

So why am I telling you this?

Well.

I have a confession to make- when I was a little kid I thought that Spaghetti Westerns were called “Spaghetti Westerns” because

THEY WENT ON AND ON AND ON…just like a spaghetti noodle.

Yes. Its true.

The Turtles Are Dieing

I like to think of myself as a writer, so when I sat down to try to express how I felt about the BP Oil Spill, and what it meant to me, all I could think of was a picture I saw and the first thought that popped into my head was: 

The Turtles Are Dieing. 

Its not fair. 

To any of us. 

Photo: Kevin Rosseel /MorgueFile 6/9/2008

  

Rain is pourin’ down like the
heavens are hurtin’.
Seems like it’s been dark since
the devil knows when.
How do you go on, never knowin’
for certain,
Will the sun ever shine again? 

From HUFFPO: BP Spill 2010

 

Fells like it’s been years since
it started to thunder.
Clouds are campin’ out in the valley
and glen.
How do you go on, when you can’t help
but wonder.
Will the sun ever shine again? 

From Getty: VENICE, LA - APRIL 30: Fishermen wait in line to receive a contract from BP company representatives to use their boats to help clean up the oil spill in the Gulf of Mexico that is approaching the coast

 

What if the rain keeps fallin’?
What if the sky stays gray?
What if the wind keeps squallin’,
And never go away? 

Nicole St Aubin: Santa Rosa National Seashore- dead animals washing up on shore already!

 

Maybe the soon the storm will be
tired of blowin’.
Maybe soon it all will be over, amen.
How do you go on, if there’s no way
of knowin’?
Will the sun ever shine?
Wish I could say.
Send me a sign-
One little ray.
Lord, if you’re list’nin’, how long
until then?
Will the sun ever shine again? 

From AP: Research assistant Megan Broadway holds an injured sea turtle at the Institute for Marine Mammal Studies in Gulfport, Miss., Saturday, May 1, 2010. The institute is gearing up to help marine mammals that may be injured by the oil slick in the Gulf of Mexico.

 

 

Food For Thought

 

Hungry? 

Me too.

I live in the suburbs, I have not replaced my beloved leather motorcycle jacket and that thought bothers me as it pops into my head  at least once a week, my hair started to turn gray about four years ago and last night I did the math and figured out that the actor who took over the role of The Doctor from David Tennant is old enough to  be my son.

 

I have this picture of my life in my head- my life is sitting on a park bench and its shoe laces are not tied.

No I don’t know what that means.

I’ve gone back to writing, what I do here is a warm up- I actually write short stories and I’m working on my book. When I’m writing I’m actually a more patient and dare I say it- I’m actually kinder to myself and the people around me.

You’d think the people in my life would have noticed that  by now.

Maybe they have.

Maybe they LIKE having one of Clive  Barker’s Cenobites in their lives, because when I’m not writing that’s what I turn into.

I know that the fact is lost on most horror fans, but the cenobites are bad guys with no sense of humor.

So my point is, let’s keep Anita writing because when she isn’t writing?

 

Science Monday

When I was a kid I wanted to be a Scientist

just like Dr Phibes.

Phibes had a great lab, he was a musician and his ‘experiments’ seemed to astound and amaze everyone in the most dramatic fashion.

As a weedy little kid whose best friends were a crippled kid with braces on her legs a hearing aid in each ear and massively thick eye glasses and who I was  absolutely convinced was a Science Experiment project gone PERFECT  and another kid who uses to sit in my cherry tree with me and plan ” death defining tricks ” that involved our radio flyer wagons, yellow Tonka dump trucks big enough for us to ride in and Highway 99 at the bottom of street- you know, Phibes just appealed to me in a very big way.

Of course, at the end of the day my interest in Phibes and Science and those Vincent Price mad scientist kits fully prepared me for the job I had in a Funeral Home.

Photo: a.m. moscoso

I should also mention that one of my favorite tv shows is

” Say Yes To The Dress.”

That’s a show about women looking for the perfect wedding dress.

Yes.

I am serious.

All I can add to this post is this thought-

it might  be a really good idea to monitor what your kids watch on tv.

You wouldn’t want them to turn out non traditional or weird or scary or strange.

Would you?

PS I Hope You Die A Horrible Death

Years and years ago- when he was about eight years old,  the second born in my family got mad at me for taking away his Nintendo.

To show me how evil I was and how I had destroyed his life- he drew a picture of a cemetery and wrote his name on every single tombstone. I was impressed because there were a couple of dozen of those things and they were all different styles. It was obvious the kid had put a lot of work into that picture.

In fact I know exactly how much work he put into it because he drew it on the while sitting in the kitchen floor when I was making dinner and I was stepping over his emotionally distraught form every time I turned around.

That aside the entire picture was cool, it was detailed there were twisted black trees, zombies, coffins and a full Moon with teeth.

There may have been a Nintendo hanging from its mouth.

Oh and it had the same color hair as me.

It was also wearing a witch’s hat.

Anyway.

I liked it so much I put it in a frame and showed it too my friends.

One day my kid came home from school and caught me showing off his artwork.

He pulled the framed picture out of my hand, stomped his little foot and said, ” I hate you.  AND you’re stupid.”

Until today I thought that little picture was the funniest slapdown any kid had ever put on paper and shoved under a parent’s bedroom door- and then I found this on the interwebs:

(pic from Passive Aggressive Notes. Com)

Mighty Mice

I’m fighting off a nasty flu bug.

I think I’m losing.

But Never Fear

 

My Cat Micey Is Here!

Mr. trouble never hangs around,when he hears this Mighty sound,

Here I come to save the day!That means that Mighty Mouse is on the way!

On the sea or on the land,He's got the situation well in hand(paw)!

Thoughts On Easter From The Esther Bunny’s Sister

Do you know why I love Easter?

For starters you get to wear pretty clothes, eat chocolate and in some cases get presents.

I know, that sounds a lot like Valentines Day and Christmas. But take away the disembodied human hearts that seem to float around like Donovan’s  Brain and what do you get? That’s right- in the end even  Valentine’s Day- with all that potential to be more is  just another Holiday.

But Easter?

I don’t care what anyone else thinks

It is a morbid holiday wrapped in pastel colors and delivered to you in a  basket and said  basket is left  by your sleeping defenseless  form by a rabbit that can walk around like a human.

I’ve heard that those bunnies are over six feet tall and that they have magical powers.

Honestly, a reasonable person may think this scenario will not end well.

That’s why I love Easter.

It’s just like Halloween-minus the demons and witches and graveyards of course.

 Personally, I think Easter is Halloween for people who don’t want to admit to themselves they are into the odd and macabre in a very big way 

 Painting  up eggs to make them  up to look happy and then placing them in a decorative way in a  basket?

UGH.

I worked in a Funeral Home.

We called that  process the dressing and casketing  of the dead and if you think I will  be sitting around cracking hardboiled eggs open this Sunday morning you  are SO wrong.

 

When I was a kid-well, to be honest I’d  be doing it to this day if she didn’t live so far away and I hate to drive at night – I used to get up in the middle of the night steal my little sister’s chocolate bunny out of her basket and sneak out into the hall with it.

Then I would bust off the bunny ears and eat just one- I’d share the other with my dog or brother.

The rule was whoever got there first got the ear.

Then I would put the earless bunny back into her basket.

I can’t help but to feel that of all of my sins if I were to make it to the Pearly Gates THAT is the one that will keep me out of heaven and this is why…

My sister’s name is Esther and when we used to call her ” The Esther Bunny “

 

I read this to my husband and I asked him if he thought it was funny.

He said, ” its funny as Hell “

I was a little concerned at that line.

So I said ” but you weren’t laughing.”

He told me he was laughing on the inside.

Yeah, you do that I thought to myself as I laughed  ( on the inside ) at the thought of his earless – soon to be headless chocolate bunny waiting to visit him Easter Morning.

The Song Continues

This is a note from my friend Ronnie Ray:

There is going to be a CD release and a benefit for Terry Hoskins at 2141 State Route 125 in Amelia, Ohio on Saturday…March 27th starting at 6:30 P.M. So if anyone on your site is close by, I hope they’ll stop in an support our cause. Home Aid is our foundation.

-Ronnie Ray

To See The Video Go HERE

For Updates about Ronnie Ray Taking this story on the road go HERE