The thing I dread the most
is the day I tell myself
I never loved you, either.

Dread: Write about doing something you don’t want to do.
The thing I dread the most
is the day I tell myself
I never loved you, either.

Dread: Write about doing something you don’t want to do.
Last year I decided to take the guitar back up.
I haven’t played in an embarssing amount of time, so I knew it was going to be chore to get my hands back into shape. I had to go back and work on sight reading too.
I practice when I’m waiting for my dinner to cook, for my laundry to dry, I practice when I feel like I want to feel connected to a world that breaks to bits day by day.
There are other times when I practice and play because it brings me joy .
In some horror films, there is a scene when the monster pulls it’s mask off and everyone gasps in horror at what they see- they gnash their teeth and cry that they can’t believe someone they knew or loved was the horror standing before them.
I feel like that’s what happened after Convicted Felon Donald Trump was elected.
People looked at their friends and loved ones and neighbors and said, ” I can’t believe you voted for that hateful man”
But it’s time to call that out: Nobody was surprised by their loved ones voting for someoene like Convicted Felon Trump.
What people are surprised by was that they never thought that hateful bs would fly back and hit them in the face. They thought these people would just rant and rave about ” THOSE people ” getting above themselves at Thanksgiving and that they would make stupid comments about holidays like Kwanzaa on social media. No harm, no foul.
I think what most people are shocked by was that they never really had any idea how deep that hate in the people they loved went- and if that hate was so deep rooted and they were so commited to it- was there a chance, even a small one that their very own loved one, their dearest friend could turn that darkness on them.
The answer is yes.
That fact is being proven every single second of the day.



Dear Humans
Quit saying Trump has brought Hell on Earth to the United States.
We have standards and there is no way that what you have up there resembles what we have down here.
We have some class and like it or not, we have rules we have to follow.
Now go deal with your own shit and quit trying to blame your poor decisions on me.
LM
Today, as a Convicted Felon puts his P*&Y Grabbing hand on a bible and God in Heaven wretches his guts out at the sight of that I will not be crying ove the death of Democracy and Dignity here in the United States of America.
Instead I will do what I have learned drives people who despise you absolutely batshit crazy.
I intend to keep living my life the way I always have and I will stay engaged with the world and everything in it so that I can keep writing. I will keep playing my guitar because the minute I hit a chord I am reminded that I am a Rebel who has been put through the meat griner more then once and lived to tell the tale.
I don’t intend to change a single atom of my existence because a bunch of Racists and Republicans are intent on erasing the world and reconstructing it in their image. As long as I keep being me they don’t win. They don’t get to paint their perfect picture. They do NOT get to define reality.
That’s right, I’m going to keep being me and if you don’t like it- screw you right in the ear.
amm